My Depression Story – Part 1

My Depression Story – Part 1

I once decided to try writing like Kurt Vonnegut. The experiment started and stopped with this piece. I learned something and moved on. One thing you ought to know about me is that I’m a junkie for meaning. I even keep a list of places where meaning might be found. […]

Ego, Virtue, Underworld

Ego, Virtue, Underworld

I have spent too much time in the underworld lately — the world of dreams and complexes; the wild borderland between the conscious and unconscious mind. I feel unsteady, having encountered too many strange and unfamiliar things, each one demolishing another load-bearing wall in my worldview. Driving in my car yesterday, […]

Interconscious Communication

Interconscious Communication

One of my greatest recent discoveries is that my mind is not a single thread of intelligence but a panoply of intelligences. And I am much smarter, and life works much better, when there is fluid communication between them. I can tell when communication in my psyche is good. For […]

Growth

Growth

Chances are that you, like me, were never taught much about human growth. Here’s a crash course to speed you on your way. Growth is a matter of needs Consider a seed. Inside the seed is a blueprint for a fully developed plant. The seed wants to take that blueprint […]

Dreams

Dreams

I used to think sleep was mostly an inconvenience that I should minimize. But now I think the opposite: sleep is incredibly productive. For one, sleep diverts energy to the unconscious which can do massively parallel, non-linear thinking that the conscious mind can’t do. For another, sleep recalls the conscious […]

How I recommend books to myself

How I recommend books to myself

After I was led by my unconscious to read C.G. Jung’s autobiography, I lost the urge to read much more. Instead I was drawn to, of all things, Michael Crichton’s autobiography. I’d found out some months earlier that he’d written one and his name kept surfacing in my mind. So […]

Cold-water Alchemy

Cold-water Alchemy

The idea to give up hot water seemed to come out of nowhere; an exhilarating thought that struck me as something I must do. So I unplugged my water heater. I washed dishes in cold water. I took cold showers. “Why am I doing this?” I asked myself. “Why are […]

What I am. Maybe.

What I am. Maybe.

I was raised with a Sunday-school metaphysics that made spirit out to be some sort of otherworldly substance separate from matter and mind. I never saw the stuff but was inclined to believe in it because of a class of experiences I called “spiritual” — experiences where I felt connected […]

When Crichton’s Unconscious Tried Killing Him

When Crichton’s Unconscious Tried Killing Him

I decided to take a break from studying the unconscious to read Michael Crichton’s autobiography, but no such luck. A few chapters into the book he tells about a time when his unconscious mind tried, repeatedly, to kill him. Consciously he had no desire to die. He was writing more […]

Where to find ghosts

Where to find ghosts

It’s strange how everyone knows what ghosts are though we don’t bump into them often (or ever, some might say). Still we intuitively understand what a ghost is or, at least, what a ghost would be. But maybe the reason ghosts are such a common conception is because we actually […]